me again

frustrated with me's what else is new? I am hungry wish i wasnt such an idiot, i have switching i hate the mood changes its like i dont know how to feel, i have no idea how singletons can possibly feel all the things at onece? sometimes we feel such strong emotions someone can feel such sadness and someone else can be totally happy, how can you feel things all at once i really dont understand how ppl are able to do that, just as singletons can't understand how things are for us, but its so frustrating, how can ppl here even decide if they want to be more together when it feels so forien to us? its like asking singletons to be multiple that wouldnt be a possibility and its not like we would ever say oh yeah you should definately be multy its awesome. I mean it sucks but being single can suck too so how do you handle it? there are some in side that can't stand others, want to be their own person, but that can never be. so how do you make this existance be ok? How can We be happy this way? thats why some of us just want to stop. stop being because we feel we can never be totally free in this life, i dont think there ever can be true peace within so what is the benifit of being here this way? this way stinks and its the only way we know and feels like its too hard to be different we just dont know how. i am so tired of this war within, and frankly really the world at large sucks I feel there is no solution, no way to make it better no way to be happy not like this.  it feels impossible to live this way and it possible to live any other way i am feeling so hopeless about us our world inside and the world outside really doesnt give me much to want to stay around for. just rambling going to keep this private not for "friends" eyes dont want anyone to freak, but i mean these are valid questions and points aren't they? I need something to hold on for, a reason to try, something to strive for that i truly think is possible, because right now? i dont feel like things will get better within there is too much fighting and chaos and feelings and everyone is different. good night for now my warriors, wish i didnt see you's all in the morning that would make me truly happy