feel like writing dont know what or why

what to say, who knows? listening to music back to basics pretty cool just feeling alone but yet so much not alone. so tired of everything, when talking with D about a certain keep thinking if she is multie why dont she have no issues from it?? cause damn we dont want none but it dont matter what one wants, its there they are there, he is there another he and probably more, then there is her the old her and the younger her what does it all add up to you may ask? lots of Shit that we deal with thats what. but yet others seem unscaved buy what they profess to have and what they have gone through? they got so much to be thankful for, a brand new baby and two other kids, but thats not good enough, they gotta start shit and hurt ppl that we care about?? fuck that, or I should say fuck them if they are a them and if they arent well f her to be persice we sure as H dont want to add to the shit we have to deal with, why do they gotta mess with ppl? why cant they be blessed for what they have and who they have and leave ppl the F alone? I just dont get it???? I would give anything not to deal with the shit I do, like I said she is a Fing Borderline and even if she is more than one that comes in last way last to the person she is I dont know why this is not letting me space down anyway I have to go to sleep now because if not I wont get there, please help us be free somehow, someone soon we cant see far ahead and we dont like what we see here