I am going to do this a different way sense I lost my whole huge entry from yesterday. I had a great time with Ruthie's I don't remember a lot of it, that is very fustrating. I do know that I ate a lot, I really have gained a lot of weight it's amazing to me how fast you can put on weight. I don't understand why I have been getting a lot of headaches. I know lots of people that are multiple get headaches, but I have never been one to do that.
I had a terrible night last night. Very bad nightmares the whole night. I woke up exhausted. A friend from church passed away I went to the funeral on Wednesday. I'm going to miss him very much he had a real bad rheumatoid arthritis. He must've had it for a very long time. His fingers were very twisted. He never complained, I know he had to be in lots of pain. I have been thinking about that and wondering how he coped with it. I haven't said this about anybody before that I know, but Jack was a godly man. I think that's what he did to cope he stayed close to God and have tremendous faith. Also he did for others all the time. I have learned a lot from him. I am going to strive to be closer to God and lean on him more. I will miss you Jack, if you can save me a place up there near you I would like that.
On to more good news, I am going to New York from August 30 to September third. I am so excited I can't believe Sheila is doing this for me. We're going there for our 40th birthday's. When I talked to her sister Jacquie a couple months ago, she asked why I didn't come to my uncle and aunt's 50th wedding anniversary. I told her I was invited. She was socked because the parents said that I was busy and not able to come. I have always told Jacquie and sheila that they don't treat me good. She felt so bad and said why don't we plan for me to go to New York and not tell them until I land. I said I would love that but I had to wait till I pay off my computer and that will take about a year. She said that's okay just tell her when I was ready. When Sheila was here she was talking about spending a lot of money to have a party for our family when we turned 40. I assumed that Jacquie would tell her that I wasn't invited to the party for my aunt and uncle and that I really wanted to go to New York but she didn't. I told her that I wasn't invited when she asked why I didn't come to the party she too was shocked that they didn't invite me. Originally the parents just told me they were going not anybody else in the family. Then the grandmother told me oh yeah everybody is going I felt so hurt. Anyway I suggested to Sheila instead of spending all the money on a family party here why don't we go to New York instead she thought that was a great idea and she already bought my ticket in my hotel room in the city. I can't believe how much she spent 1300 dollars! They are going to rent an accessible van to, you can rent them right from Kennedy Airport I thought that was really neat. I haven't been on a plane in so long. This will be mine and Olsen's first trip together. I hope he does good on the plane time will tell
Larissa's coming pretty soon to dye my hair I can't wait because I want to get back in bed. Maybe I'll write more later
