Finally writing again
Today is Wednesday that I'm sure of not sure of much else. Stayed in bed a lot today and most likely will go back there lots more. Yesterday they drained a liter and a half of a fluid from Anita's lung they are going to do the other one today.
So much has been happening of my brain is so scattered I can even remember most of it except the course of Ruthie situation I still can't get over it every time I think of her gross comes to mind I was nauseous for the longest time my stomach is still not doing the best but its better have been having a hard time taking my pills at night I've been doing it of course its just not easy my stomach does flip-flops
I think I am pretty depressed kind of hard to know for sure though because I think I always have some depression all the time if that's possible? Just not in a very good space I feel like self harming so much at a given and for that I am glad I felt more grounded yesterday now I am back to feeling the wet spongy feeling
Patrice called and invited me to Panera bread with a friend of hers I am going to go but I don't want to not even one bit I hate it that I don't want to I wish that I did
Guess that's enough for now hopefully next time I'll have something exciting to say
