Is been a long time

It has been forever since I have written.  I really don't even know what to say or where to start.  It's hard when everything so discombobulated.  I was really sad today because Christie told me that they think Dejon is sociopathic, the psychologist, social worker and behavior specialist all agree I just feel so bad because I'm wondering is being that way totally dependent on ones environment? Or is it something you are born with?  They say the psycho dad is antisocial personality with psychotic tendencies, I guess I'm just wondering what makes a person that way and I could care less about the psycho dad but Dejon is a 14 year old child I would hate to think that there's no hope for him?  It's not his fault he has a drug addict for mother and crazy grandmother.

I went to that gynecologist, he's really nice he is going to do that procedure on me where they take the  Lining out of your uterus.  I am really nervous about it but I hope it will help first I have to go for sonogram on Wednesday.  It worries me having to drink all that water I hope they can do it with me being in my chair still.

We went to Costco today it was a nice store.  We bought some real food first time in a long time it won't let me change the color on the thing I am using DragonDictate I hate pink

We bought a big thing of pasta Alfredo with chicken, we were going to spread it out and make four or  Five meals out of it.  Then someone bought a thing of three pounds of brownie bites and  we were just going to put  Those in baggies and put them in the freezer.  We got protein bars were doing okay with that, the people want to throw all the other stuff in the garbage it's the first time any real foods been in the house except for one meal here and there I hope it doesn't get thrown out but there is one of me and many more of them time will tell I guess we are really nervous about Ruthie coming because of the food thing more than nervous but if Moronn doesn't come around in her system and jellies are just around they won't be eating a lot but if Moronn around Lord help us all because he has an incredible appetite

I wish it wasn't going to be Monday again it seems to me that it just was Monday but I guess that doesn't mean anything does it?  Man I hate this pink I tried to put it to black and I wouldn't change it to black either.
Saturday is the grandmothers 90th birthday joy to us all (not) that means a huge gathering of the family everybody knows how we love that yes? I think we will take the opportunity to indulge its more than time for somebody to get drunk around here and what better time?  Lord knows will be around enough of them at least some of us will fit in for once
goodnight it's time to go