My first entry - whats eating me's

Well here i am writing, could be dangerous LOL. Had a good day with Amy's and toby dog. Ate this morning, but very hungry. Can't eat though, been doing that way too much. I am so scared gonna gain wieght. want to be so thin, and I am way to fat. Gotta do better, but afraid to do too good. What do I do? Like the hugry feeling cause then i won't gain, or throw up. thats it for now mostly Barb